In my last blog post, I wrote about how I need to do more preaching to my own soul, to get truth sown deeper into my heart and mind…especially during the difficult times and circumstances of life. Well, sometimes, I struggle with this.
I can tend to get into such a place that it would take more mental and emotional where-with-all, strength and stamina than I have at that moment to even know where to start. The scriptures that had once brought comfort and peace and that strengthened me, that I wrote on my bathroom mirror and have on my screensaver and put as the wallpaper on my phone, fall flat. I can read them and have friends speak them to me and even meditate on them, trying to squeeze out the same results that I had before when that scripture brought me new life, but to no avail…I’m still just as broken or hurt or hopeless.
I have learned that for me, in those times, I need a little something else before I am able to absorb the truths that I know in my head but that are having a hard time penetrating my heart…and it’s not because the truths are not as true this time or that the effectiveness of scripture has changed. Typically for me, it is because I am spent. (You know, when it’s not because I’m being rebellious and outright ignoring or rejecting truth.) I’m mentally, spiritually and emotionally exhausted, and I can’t even think of how to approach preaching to myself. But because my God is faithful and gracious to me, He has given me a tool to use when I can’t make myself function, when I need to stop trying to fix myself and just rest in His presence. For me, that tool is worship, songs of truth that can wash over me in comforting waves and that I can proclaim when I can’t find the words for myself.
Because my God is faithful and gracious to me, He has given me a tool to use when I can’t make myself function, when I need to stop trying to fix myself and just rest in His presence. For me, that tool is worship.
Sometimes I will have a song with a message that holds a particular truth that I know I need, and I will play that song to myself many times as a proclamation of truth…and even when I don’t feel like it is true, I will play it on repeat for days at a time. I learned long ago that my feelings are not the most reliable source of truth. So, I let what I know to be true sing over me until I can process feelings and get back to the place where I can more easily claim truth over feelings.
Sometimes God will give me a grouping of songs whose lyrics all touch my heart in places that bring hope and encouragement and strength, and again I make a playlist and listen on repeat. I saturate myself in worship, and eventually, I start to sing the truth that has saturated my soul and sunk deeper into my being with more and more belief and assuredness in the truths expressed so melodically. Then my heart makes a shift and not only am I being nurtured by worship, but I am proclaiming those words back to God. I worship my God, who sees me and never leaves me, in praise for His never-ending goodness and as thanks for the mighty way He always brings me back to Him. It is through that process of worship that I find peace that only comes when I am in that place of abiding with Him. This has always been the result when I saturate my heart and mind with worship.
My heart makes a shift and not only am I being nurtured by worship, but I am proclaiming those words back to God.
God has been so gracious to me in this area. It seems that every single time I have a difficult season or circumstance in life, God blesses me with a new song that speaks truth right into the moment I am in. At times, the song He gives me is simply for that specific season and other times the songs become anthems over my life.
So, I thought I would share some of the worship songs that have meant so much to me throughout my life. Hopefully, some will speak profound truths into your life as well and be a healing balm for some broken places, providing you hope and peace in the midst of difficulty. Hopefully some will bring you the same assurance they brought me in the truths that God is good, He is our constant and our rock in an unsteady and shaky world, His presence is with us always and His love for us is unchanging. And hopefully, like they did for me, some will bring you to deeper understandings of who you are in Him and the plans He has for your life that are good and beyond our understanding and what we could ever hope or imagine.