Confessions of a Control Freak

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I’ve never considered myself a control freak. I’d like to think that I fall more under the category of go-with-the-flow. I thrive in organized chaos (my desk cluttered with paintbrushes and about 6 half-read books can attest to that). I love spontaneity and adventures with no determined schedule. Sometimes I eat ice cream for breakfast. I mean, that’s really letting the reigns loose on control if you ask me.

So it’s funny that the Lord is teaching me just how much I try to control my circumstances in my broken, often newborn-Bambi-like (wobbly legs and all) attempt to follow Him.

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Satisfaction

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“The LORD will guide you continually, giving you water when you are
dry and restoring your strength. You will be like a well-watered
garden, like an ever-flowing spring.” Isaiah 58:11


One dirty sock, one beaded cross keychain, and a few coins. These were the items that my stepson carefully placed next to each other in a straight, neat row. He looked at me with a smile and said, “Now Ash, which one of these things should you never throw away?”

I looked at the items, puzzled by what his little mind was trying to accomplish. I took a second and thought about all the topics we had discussed on prayer and Jesus, and I chose the cross with a question in my voice.

“You’re exactly right!” was his response.

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That scene played over and over in my head. Mostly because I thought it was cute. But then one morning, as I was preparing for a run before the rest of the members of my house woke up, it hit me. I was going through all that I needed to do, bills that needed to be paid, and pondering the future as I laced up my shoes. The thought stopped me dead in my tracks and I knew instantly that it was from the Lord.

“What is most important?”
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