Losing Control


“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:6-7

I could feel my heart beating fast as I thought of the situation being presented to me. It was something I didn’t agree with and something that I felt was not wise. But I was left there, powerless without any way to make it right. As I worried about my little family and the affects it might have on them, I could feel my anxiety growing as I came to a place of not knowing what to do and feeling completely powerless.

We have all been there.

Those places that cause us to lift our hands, completely empty, asking God to show us how to fix it. How to protect. How to mend the brokenness that could be lurking or in the future. What to do.

As a mom, my heart is so strongly for the children God has entrusted to me. I want their best. I want them to love the things of God instead of being fascinated by the things of this world. That is my prayer for them. Everyday. As well as protection from the things that I have no control over. As parents, we try daily to protect our children from evil, from the sin that so easily entangles. We want them to find the beauty of Christ. We want to be the best we can be and a light that always points them towards the truth.

But what about when you have no control?

What about when your influence can only go so far?

This is where I found myself. My heart was breaking as I began to realize I had no power to protect and no control over any of the situation. I wanted so badly to fix the problem that I found myself paralyzed with fear, worry and anxiety over what might happen. I sat there in tears wishing I could do something. Wishing I had a way to make it all better. Wishing I was in complete control.

“’For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.  Do not be afraid, for I myself will help you,’ declares the Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.” – Isaiah 41:13-14

The moments we feel we are the most out of control, are the moments where Christ reveals His power. I have watched Him work in the mightiest ways while I sat still and didn’t even have to lift one finger. There are many ways in which He asks us to work in His power, but there are often times when He asks us to be still. To wait while He works. So He can show us the strength of His plan and what it truly means to have faith in His timing.

This is where I found myself.

Things are still unresolved.

I still find myself fighting the urge to worry.

But I also find Christ in the midst of it all.

And with Christ, I find His presence is enough to still the storm in me that worries about the future and the protection of my family.

Because HE GETS IT.

He understands when our hearts are worried. He understands when we wish we could help. But He also, like a loving Father, asks us to be still while He shows us the glory of His perfect plan. We may never know why God does what He does, but we can always trust that He is working even in the midst of confusion and worry.

Whatever you might be facing today, I want you to quiet the storm. Take a moment and remind your soul of all the times He has come to your rescue and revealed His power. Because the truth is, even when everything else seems to be broken and darkness seems to triumph, Christ is there. He is standing in the midst of the storm, and He is calling you to trust in His plan. And as we trust, the storm around us seems to disappear and we are left with the embrace of the Savior as He shows us the kindness in His heart. Trust His plan. He is there and He gets it.