Motherhood is quite different than I imagined. It’s tiring and fulfilling. It’s snuggles and screams. It’s sleepless nights and long days. It’s lonely and beautiful. And it’s everything you hoped and more. Truth is, motherhood has taught me that life is meant to be lived raw. To give of yourself and sacrifice when you just want to do something other than nurse and be at home. To take the beautiful things and thank Jesus for them and embrace the hard and thank Jesus for them.
These little lives are gifts given to us for only a short time. And right now I’m just thankful for these tiny hands that hold my whole heart and that have brought joy to our whole family. Because I know – though the days are long…the years are short. And I don’t want to miss a thing in either of the sweet gifts in my life.
“I will lead them down a new path, guiding them along an unfamiliar way. I will brighten the darkness before them and smooth out the road ahead of them. Yes, I will indeed do these things; I will not forsake them.” – Isaiah 42:16
I will be the first mom to say that mommin’ ain’t easy. I have been blessed to be able to be a step mom for almost three years and now have the privilege of raising one of my own as well. Both roles are difficult in different ways but both are beautiful as well. They don’t tell you about the difficult times and the sleepless nights. Maybe they do but in your mind you imagine different. They don’t tell you about being so worried about either of them or praying for their future. They don’t tell you how deeply and completely your heart will belong to them.
If there is one thing I’ve learned these last three years and these last two weeks, it’s that being a mom should be hard because being a mom means sacrifice. It means giving when you are empty. Loving when you are hurt. Praying when you don’t know what to say. And hoping that through it all you can be a light in the darkness and a refuge from the storms in this world. God has reminded me that it is a blessing to be walked out with Him. Time with Him is crucial to not lose your sanity and patience. Prayer is our biggest weapon against the enemy and love covers all.
So while there are many days I have cried over these last few years, there are many prayers that have been answered. God continues to guide and show me how to walk along this mom path. Sometimes it’s beautiful and sometimes it’s just really hard. But at all times, He is God and He is with us. He gives us the strength we need for each day if we let Him.
Today I’m thankful that the same God who parted the Red Sea still has His hand and power in all of our circumstances. “The waves and wind still know His name.” So when confusion or hurt, doubt or fears, trials or failures come our way, we can rest securely in a God who works all things – the good, the bad, and the just plain ugly – into His perfect plan.
In those moments that I find myself feeling anxious, I have to remind my heart that just a whisper of His name can cause the mountains to move and the hills to be leveled. God will always show Himself faithful. I am so quick to forget this fact. When worry or hard times hit, I forget all He has done (can I just say how much I relate to the Israelites!) and quickly conjure up scenarios of the worst possible outcome.
Today, I’m taking a moment to look over the last 7 years of my life and choosing to see where my God has shown up. Because truthfully, some days we do have to choose God over worry or anxiousness. Choose to see the good. Choose to trust Him. Choose to remember His faithfulness through the years. Choose to know that He is the God who sees it all and is working in ways we can’t imagine.
I was inspired by one of my childhood favorite singers, Brooke Fraser. I was reminded from a post of hers, on International Women’s Day in early March, of the way Jesus treated women, which is the same way He does today and every day. With mercy when our choices fail Him, with grace when we don’t have any left for ourselves, with humility to invite us to Him, and love to pursue us beyond the pits we find ourselves trapped in. Continue reading “The Way Jesus Treats Women”
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:6-7
I could feel my heart beating fast as I thought of the situation being presented to me. It was something I didn’t agree with and something that I felt was not wise. But I was left there, powerless without any way to make it right. As I worried about my little family and the affects it might have on them, I could feel my anxiety growing as I came to a place of not knowing what to do and feeling completely powerless.
We have all been there.
Those places that cause us to lift our hands, completely empty, asking God to show us how to fix it. How to protect. How to mend the brokenness that could be lurking or in the future. What to do. Continue reading “Losing Control”
“And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:19
Money can be a tricky thing. After taking over our family’s finances about a year ago, I was overwhelmed to say the least. My husband was so busy with his business, and I was so clueless about our situation that there were many bills left and right that hadn’t been paid for some time. I worked for a while to learn how to financially plan and be wise with what God was giving us. As I began this process and it started to become more of a habit, God reminded me of one thing.
Are we tithing?
Working through bills, for me, was much more than writing a check every month to satisfy the collector. To me it was honoring God with the resources He had given us. I wanted to pay things off, to be able to help others when we were able, and to give back to Him what He is due. As my family began to tithe, I quickly learned something very valuable. Tithing takes away your ability to control. Continue reading “He Is The God Who Provides”
“For in Him we live and move and exist.” – Acts 17:28
Being pregnant, bathroom stops are frequent and unavoidable. I was on a work errand that was further away than I expected, and when I finally exited the interstate, I knew I had to find a pit stop fast. I kept looking at different gas stations, but for some reason, none of them seemed appealing. Honestly, there wasn’t a legitimate reason, each one looked nice. I just found myself continuing to drive, looking for something different. When I saw a Chick-fil-a in sight I figured I could probably use some fruit and a water along with the bathroom break. I stopped and immediately made my way to the restroom.
Walking in, I noticed two workers standing outside the stalls talking. I apologized as I rushed by them, slightly bumping into one. As I was in there, I heard one asking if the other was ok and explaining to her that she looked really pale. I could hear the concern and panic in her voice as she asked a question that stopped me in my tracks: “How far along are you?” My mind immediately went from viewing a young sick girl at work that just needed to go home, to a young pregnant girl that might be having some major complications. The manager then decided to call for an ambulance because the expectant mother could no longer walk and was extremely nauseous.
Continue reading “An Unusual Bathroom Visit”
“Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others.” – Colossians 3:13
Forgive. It’s such a small word that packs big a punch. When dealing with ourselves, we want forgiveness to be offered to us freely. When dealing with others, it’s not something we quickly jump to or even want in moments of hurt.
For such a small word, Jesus has big thoughts on the matter. This year, He has taught me just what it means to forgive. Not the passive, “I want to move past this conversation and get over this awkwardness,” forgiveness. But the kind that brings you to love the person, to see them as Christ sees them, and ultimately hope for their good. So, below are just a few things God has revealed to me on the topic of forgiving others and letting His love heal those dark and hurting places. Continue reading “3 Important Lessons on Forgiveness”
Being a parent can be tough. Being a stepparent, adopted parent or foster parent can be even more difficult. Some people don’t understand when a stepparent and child are close, and that’s ok. Not everyone needs to understand because the life of a stepparent, or foster parent, wasn’t meant for everyone. But if you know someone who is one and they are doing their best to love, support and help raise a child that’s not their own…don’t judge or ridicule them. Don’t talk about them. Just love them. Encourage them. Because chances are, they are giving a whole lot of themselves to love a child that isn’t theirs. Continue reading “For The Unseen Warriors”
Sometimes we can live blindly. We go through our routines, living how we want, completely forgetting the God who gave us another day to live. I’ve been in a season of learning to be intentional with what God is doing, painful or joyful. In those moments of truly seeking Him, we are reminded that He is the one who brings the joy and the comfort, that He is working all things together for our good. I’m thankful that He hears our prayers and is in control of it all.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” – Romans 8:28